Friday, March 8, 2013

Thirty Day Expansion Day 5

So How does being undeserving of Grace establish your Identity?

Lets take the Royal Family, Prince William for example. Prince William didn't have to "do" anything to become a Prince did he? No...He was simply born into the right family. In order for Prince William to continue being a Prince does he have to attend Prince lessons? Again...no. He could do nothing for the rest of His life and he would still be a Prince.

Now, If Prince William was to become King Do you think He would be a suitable King without having gone through all those Prince Lessons? Or having a knowledge of his people or economics or ways to better his Country? If Prince William was to take over and didn't know one stitch about being King alot of people in his Kingdom may not respect him or think he had the necessary tools to get the job done the best way possible.

What about Prince William do you think he would feel confident in his abilities if he didn't have the knowledge to back it up? If he doesn't know who he is and isn't confident in the fact that he's a Prince he likely wouldn't get very far.

This is The same with Jesus and Gods Grace.

When you accepted Jesus into your heart you became part of a Royal family. You were made a Prince or a Princess. Thats it, This is a Done deal for the rest of your life. In order to continue being a Prince or Princess or Child of God whichever you prefer there is no course REQUIREMENTS. Nothing you HAVE TO DO. You will forever be in this family.

"Are you saying we don't have to read the bible? or Pray? or do anything?"

What Im saying is that in order to remain a child of God you don't have to do anything. However the bible is something God uses to speak to us, in my opinion Gods word becomes our Prince or Princess Lessons. It shows us how to live and rule wisely. It teaches us who we are, how to overcome obstacles, and how to help others.

Will God still love you if you don't come to class? Of course. Will you have the confidence needed to live your new life and enjoy being a Child of God, no probably not. You will still be a Prince or Princess, but again think back to Prince William, without the understanding of how to live in that life he might not make a good King. Just like we might not make good Christians without Gods word to teach us.

Grace is a HUGE part of your identity its the very foundation. Jesus loves you and always will

Thirty Day Challenge Day 5

So its been several days since Ive made a post regarding the Identity Crisis Thirty Day Challenge.

Im still holding true with this challenge and have been Working through some things without posting. But herein lies where there is unfairness. In starting this challenge I "Made a pact" if you will to share everything with whomever may be reading and participating. And I haven't been holding up to my end. Possibly because this makes me seem vulnerable and honestly its a little uncomfortable.

My Adult life hasn't been peaches and butterflies. I was married and it was not Godly. I had been with this person for a long time and the next logical step was to get married. Things were okay for a while and then they went south. Looking back I cant pinpoint an exact situation that started this downhill spiral but I believe the majority of it was due to the fact that it was centered around the wrong things.

Ever heard the expression "Time changes all things?" This is completely TRUE! Time does change all things we change physically, emotionally, mentally as humans we are constantly learning and evolving within ourselves. The only things that DONT change are things founded in God, in Jesus.

If you're saying "ShadowLilly, why do you say that?" Well lets take a look at what the word says regarding Jesus/God and Time:

Malachi 3:6 "For I am the Lord, I do NOT change."
Hebrews 13:8 Jesus Christ is the SAME yesterday, Today, and Forever
James 1:17 Every Good gift and every perfect gift is from above, and comes down from the Father, With Whom there is NO VARIATION or Shadow of turning.

So if Jesus is the same forever and The Lord our God does not Change and the gifts given to us from our Father are without reproach then our lives and the things based in Jesus will not change and will always be good. Does this mean that you wont grow as an individual or grow spiritually. Not at all those things are all for your benefit.

If you are based in the right things and your focus is in Jesus then there is no way that you can possibly fail, and nothing that you do could fail - Remember:

 GOD IS FOR YOU. ALWAYS. This wont ever change and its not based on your performance. the only thing we have to do is receive the gift. Sounds too simple right?

Whats a gift that you received that you felt like maybe you didn't deserve? I got a car one year for Christmas From an Uncle.

Id never worked for my Uncle or done anything deserving of a car, in fact by all standards to those outside I was living a life that CLEARLY wasn't deserving of a car. But those are how gifts from God and grace works.  He loves you thats it.

What does this have to do with the thirty day challenge and your identity? Good Question...Ill be making a secondary post to tell you EXACTLY what this has to do with your Identity.

Thursday, February 28, 2013

Thirty Day Challenge Day 2

First a quick Recap of Day 1:

Day 1 turned out to be pretty in depth. Taking a hard look at myself and some of my good qualities and not so good qualities. The big shocker were the qualities that i thought were okay that the Word of god said differently about.

Theres a very fine line with alot of our personality traits for example Confidence can quickly turn into cockiness ( or haughtiness) or Intelligence can turn into a superiority complex, wanting to look good or feel good can turn into vanity. What i found most interesting between the majority of my traits and those "fine lines" is when that line becomes crossed its due to ourselves.

We have taken the focus solely onto ourselves and how great we are within our own strength.

"wow im so excited to have won first place!"
                            VS.
"Why wouldn't i get first place? Im better than everyone else."

Some might say well thats just Rude, or not good manners and this is true but more importantly this is self-righteousness  

Definition: Having the character  or conduct of a certainty, an unfounded one, that a person is totally correct or morally superior

Doesnt sound so great does it? Its Not...

Thinking of yourself as superior or better than others wont help you develop healthy friendships or healthy relationships. Not everyday of the Thirty Day Identity Crisis Challenge will be to get up with pen and paper and "do Something" 

Today I think it might be a good idea to just think about areas in our lives or specific times when we may have self-righteousness  or been self-righteous. How do you feel about it looking back? What could have been done differently? 

what about if youve ever been in a situation where you felt inferior to someone else? This may be because someone else was operating in some solf righteousness. HOW DID THIS MAKE YOU FEEL? How were you able to overcome this (if you were)? 

Ill be posting later with some of my responses to the same questions. 

Thank you Father for giving us the opportunity to see ourselves the way we really are at times. give us the wisdom to move forward and teach us how to change to treat ourselves and others the way you would. 





Wednesday, February 27, 2013

Thirty Day Challenge Day 1

So ill be affectionately naming the thirty day challenge "Identity Crisis"

I'm not really sure how all of this is going to work. For those who have been christians awhile God may branch you out in another way to show you more about yourself. This is really what YOU make it.

For Day 1 I'd like to start by making a list of qualities or personality traits. There can be as many or as few as you want to be. They can be values or things that you think are important as well. I think the main focus for the first couple days is going to be based around COMPLETE AND TOTAL HONESTY. Be real with yourself about your character even the bad stuff. Im willing to show anyone and everyone out there my Flaws and expose who i am to my core in order to really commit to these thirty days.

So that being said here is my List:


Confident
Sarcastic
Intelligent
Empathetic / Compassionate
Honest
Honor my parents and others
Hard working/ motivated
Pretty (Possibly even a little vain I admit)
Outgoing
Selfish (I will again admit I have my moments)

Theres more and more that I could put on my list but this gives us a good basis to start. so What does the bible say about these things? How do we even go about searching for these things in the bible? Alot of teen bibles and some others will have a list in the back of words. find the trait and on your list and see if you can locate the word and the verses associated with it.

If you dont have a bible, or Bible software on the computer where you can search for keywords try typing it into google "what does the bible say about confidence?"

Heres what I got:

Joshua 1:9 "Have I not commanded you? Be strong and Confident. Do not be frightened and do not be dismayed for the Lord your God is with you."

what about Vanity?

1 Samuel 16:7 "Do not look on his apperance or on the height of his stature. for the Lord does not see as Man sees: Man looks on the outward appearance but Lord looks on the heart."

Clearly these are two very different things. God shows us through his word that Some of the Traits we have are good and we are encouraged to keep these. Others like the desire to be pretty can quickly turn to vanity which while might not be outright harmful to others it can quickly turn into something harmful  and detrimental to ourselves.

How often have we passed up friendships or relationships with people because they werent up to par with what we though we wanted or needed?

Then again a worse thought...

How many times could someone have looked at us and done the same thing? That kind of puts it into perspective for you doesnt it?

i Enourage you through the first day to make a list of your traits and search what the bible has to say about them. God might reveal to you that certain traits arent so great. And You might find that by putting your focus in a certain direction you can alter this trait to be something positive in your life! Such as Competitive can become confidence - youll just drop the ego out of the equation.

ive decided to do my video recordings but im not sure how or when i will be posting them as of yet.








Tuesday, February 26, 2013

Thirty Day Challenge

So i realized i havent blogged in several days. not that I don't have anything to say but I've been trying to put together what i wanted to say in this next blog.

I have a friend of mine that isn't exactly  "on the fence" when it comes to God but its almost like he cant quite decide if God actually cares or not. I believe that he is saved and believes in God for the term that most christians would apply to it.

But what does it really mean to believe in God? To just have faith? does it mean working spiritual principals? what about living by a certain standard? praying? reading the word? What does it really mean?

Who is one person in your life you can count on? For me its my mother. This woman carried me, birthed me, has provided for me through my life. Shes my cheerleader, my confidant, my defender and my friend. I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that if i was ever in trouble, if push ever came to shove she would stand by me, help me and support me like she has done through my entire life.

What's more...she Believes in me. she has spent time with me and knows me to my core. knows my character because of the time she has spent with me.

Why would this not be the same with God? How do you develop a relationship with someone you cant see? who might not always talk back? I know it can frustrating to dive into the word of God and feel like you're drowning in all the thous and wherefores and begots. Its not easy feeling like the entire bible doesn't even relate to you and your life.

One of the things i found most helpful was Roman 8:31 and 39

"What then shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us... neither height, nor depth, nor anything in all creation can separate us from the love of God through Christ Jesus"

I went through a Season in my life when I didnt have any friends, When it seemed as though all the friends I did have were nothing but backstabbers who would say mean and hurtful things about me. i felt like in order to keep these friends I had to Be someone I wasn't. I had to do things that I knew weren't okay. I did things that I knew my parents would find out about and the worst part was I didnt care.

I didnt care if they found out and it upset them, i didnt care if it hurt their feelings. That is all selfishness, and my friend is very much in the same place. I dont know why he does the things he Does, I believe he knows theyre wrong, and i believe he may be conflicted about it. But if he cant see past his own selfishness and listen to his spirit nothing will get better.

When youre at a place like that in your life its strictly because you DONT KNOW WHO YOU ARE. and the YOU that you see in the mirror every morning makes you SICK.

Did it bother me or hurt my feelings when i found out my "so called friends" werent there for me anymore. Yes it did. But i had to come to a place where I continually said "God you are for me, and this person I am, I hate. I dont want to keep going this way."

And God said I dont see this, I m blinded by Love. I know the real you and i believe in you. Lets take off the makeup, let me show you who you really are. and slowly God began to establish my Identity to show me who I was. And who I am isnt the church i go to or the clothes i wear or my hair colr or my school team or wether im popular or unpopular. My identity lies in Jesus and that is something that no amount of people or circumstance can ever change or take from me

So for me to believe in God is to BELIEVE IN HIM. to believe in his character, the things he says, the promises in his word, WHO HE IS.

If youre reading this and you dont know who you are. or you think you Do and youre just not certain youre ready to believe it and live it. I challenge you to pursue Your identity in Christ for thirty days. to Make a commitment to see and speak about yourself they way God sees and speaks about you. I challenge you to step out of your current clique. I challenge you to be someone new!!! Even if youre a devout christian who is constantly in the word I challenge you to join this to commit to asking God for a deeper revelation on your identity to solidifying who you are through Jesus.

Ill be doing this myself, for the next Thirty Days and will be blogging and tweeting whats going on and how its affecting my life. Join the Thirty Day movement.

Father God I pray you will inspire within your people a hunger to know YOU. to know themselves as only you do. To reveal to us ourselves every flaw every imperfection to right it within us through the work of your Son. I pray this will be a time of acceptance within us and a desire to live the life you created us to. in Jesus' name Amen.

Love,

ShadowLilly

Saturday, February 16, 2013

Singing a new Song

I didn't "grow up in church" in fact I didnt start really going to church until I was in my early teens. I had been away one summer visiting relatives. While corresponding with my mom she told me that they had found a new church. It was word of faith and charismatic it was teaching them things, had a great youth program and i was going to love it. 

The week I returned home i went to their youth Service. The youth group had just gotten back from a mission trip and unbeknownst to me this particular church/youth group had had some amazing encounters with God while there. I had no idea what I was doing when they started their worship, it wasn't like any youth service I had ever been to. Everyone there seemed to have a genuine hunger to seek after God and to experience his presence. 

I knew next to nothing about spiritual gifts, speaking in tongues or feeling the presence of God. The youth pastor had asked up all to come up and she wanted to pray over us. Looking back now I don't recall feeling awkward. I didn't feel out of place. I felt safe and wanted. I remember hearing her pray over those close to me. She spoke in tongues and I remember thinking it was the most beautiful sound i had ever heard. And when she got to me and laid her hands on me she prayed. Everything I heard was in English but her mouth wasn't matching up with the words that I was hearing. I knew at that moment i was encountering something bigger than myself, something unexplainable and real. For the first time in my Life I felt God's presence so strong it was like I could reach out and touch Him. 

My parents came down to collect me after the service and I was surrounded by other youth engulfed in the presence of God Worshiping him and singing to him in the spirit. There are days when i sing to God and I feel him so strong loving me building our relationship through the intimacy of my voice and his love. I feel the closest to God when I'm singing in the spirit. To me its something pure and untouchable. Its a free and beautiful, empowering exchange between us. Would you not feel closer to God if you were sitting right at His feet? 

Why am I sharing this with you? Because its apart of who I am, Who God created me to be. Its apart of myself that I have kept locked away for many years because of past experiences in my life. God is reawakening in me a New Song. And its my Song meant for Him. Even if he has me sing it out for everyone to hear I know that Trusting him means knowing that he will never abuse my gift for his own gain. 

Psalm 108:1-5 God, My heart is Steady. I will sing and praise you with all my being. Wake up Harp and Lyre! I will wake up the Dawn. Lord, I will praise you among the nations; I will sing songs of Praise about you to all nations. Your great love reaches to the skies, your truth to the heavens. God you are supreme above the skies. Let your glory be over all the Earth. 

Love Letter

Do you recall receiving a Love Letter? No? How about writing one? Still nothing?

If you could write a love letter what would it say?

You're beautiful. I admire you. You're courageous I wish I had your traits. You make my life better. I cant live without you. I love you.

It would be something personal, something intimate. Something written in a fashion that will tell the other person you know them, and you appreciate them. The way your love letter is written would carry a tone so that the receiver of such a letter would know who is writing to them.

The Bible is often called Gods Love Letter. But too many times the letter is read by the wrong person and the tone carried with it isn't what God meant for it to be. The tone and interpretation of a letter read by anyone but whom it was originally addressed can come out distorted. Relationships are ever fluctuating. they are intimate and personal for those involved. there are few actual "rules for relationships" everyone is different so are the parameters and expectations on these human relationships.

My mother has three children. Myself and two boys, one 16 the other 13. The relationships between my mother and her children are all different. For example, the way my mother communicates with me is extremely different from the way my mother communicates with my youngest brother. Mine and my brothers interest differ greatly thus the way we learn and react to situations is different as well. We are two Different people. My mother never changes, she is the same person. Her values don't change, her actions don't change she is who she always has been regardless of which of her children she's speaking to.

Relationships are personalized. They are what we make them. Just because God may speak to you in a different way than he does someone else doesn't mean that you are any better or any worse than that other person. We are all different! why wouldn't our relationships with God all be different as well? You cant put a relationship into a box and conform it to someone else's standards or to  please other people. What kind of relationship would that be?

If youre reading this Gods Love Letter for you is simple. He accepts you, He loves you beyond anything! He loves the long purple stripe in your hair! He loves your tattoos! He loves your nose piercing and ear spike!

He sees you...the real you. And youre accepted